A Few More Months

TW: SUICIDE

I don’t know what to say. Except that… I don’t understand. There was never any explanation or a letter. You just left. In the end, I was stranded. I thought after how long we’d been together you’d at least let me know how you were feeling. You said, “just a few more months. We just have to hold on a few more months.” I thought that meant we’d be gone. We’d have graduated. We could finally be together for better or for worse.

But instead I’m alone.

Did you think I wouldn’t understand what it’s like to lose a parent? Did you think I deserved to lose the only person left that I loved?

You had a responsibility. You had someone ready to help you and yet you turned away and killed yourself.

Just because you were too much of a coward to face what happened with your dad. I didn’t realize you were just going to leave me like he left your mom. Did you really hate me that much?

I hope you’re burning in hell.

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