Hello there! My name is Sam Sagar (they/them). I am an Indian, queer, non-binary person with an undiagnosed chronic illness and ADHD. I’ve struggled my whole life with each of these identities, trying to squish myself into the boxes society gave me. Together, I hope we can learn how to get rid of those boxes and address personal identity and the related hurdles in a healthy, functional way. But first, here’s a little about me.
I currently work as a medical receptionist and am taking classes part time as a computer science major. To help me with my health and to save money, I moved back in with my parents, but am budgeting and organizing my life to move back out within the next year or 2. I’m still learning how to manage my ADHD so I can take care of myself and my wonderful pup, Mahi.
It has been a while since I’ve had an idea of what I want to do in the future, but I plan to document my progress through this blog. Especially when it comes to my ADHD. If you’re a fellow ADHDer or have some similar struggles like hyper-focusing at the wrong time, anxiety with handling money, or trouble managing you energy, then this is the place for you.
On this website, I’m going to try to post every week to keep track of the different methods, ideas, and insights I find when it comes to managing ADHD and transitioning into adulthood. The most exciting part is I get to share it with you! And we can embark on this journey together.
The first step for me, was learning to accept who I am and shedding labels. It is a never-ending journey, but in the meantime I have found a psychiatrist and therapist duo who can help me manage my gender dysphoria (once I write about dysphoria it’ll be linked here), my ADHD (same with my journey to getting diagnosed), and my anxiety and depression. I’ve started taking medication to manage my anxiety and regularly attend counseling to determine how to best approach my ADHD without stimulants.
In this blog, my main focuses will be documenting my struggle to organize my life around my ADHD and being non-binary. Those two aspects of my life are inexplicably connected, as I explain in my post about neurogenders. You can read more about it here. There is a lot of controversy in the trans community saying that people identifying as a neurogender are “transtrenders” or people who are pretending to be transgender or non-binary.
Let me quickly clarify what neurogender means to me here and now to avoid confusion. Neurogender means that my perception of gender is skewed because of my ADHD and occasional dissociation. This does not mean that everyone with a mental illness experiences this, but for me I simply don’t understand the concepts of masculinity vs. femininity or man and woman. I mainly identify as agendered, but will also say gendervague, due to my lack of understanding regarding gender.
Alright, since that’s out of the way, let’s set the scene for this blog! Here I want to create a safe space for us to learn and grow together, whether you’re here because you’re learning about your own gender, you struggle with ADHD, or your life is a mess like mine. I’ve got your back and I’m here to spread some positivity and love. Of course not all topics that we tackle will be sunshine and rainbows, but I’m here to remind you of one thing. You’re not alone.
Life has thrown some unexpected curve balls at all of us. But let’s breathe, take care of ourselves, and do our best to move forward. Even if that means taking a day off and just laying in bed. We got this.
All the love,